What did I say this time?
Someone seems to be furious… I don’t know why but he just mentioned something about comparing. I ain’t comparing him with anyone… We’ll I hope that’s not me, if it is, I don’t know why he had to use Twitter for that, I mean, I do that, but I’m a girl.
Anyway, I was looking for something at my archives and stumbled upon my old posts. I re-read some of them and somehow felt a slight humiliation, then asked myself so many questions that involves self-humiliation.
But of course, good memories are recalled, but those posts reminded me that at some point I was really happy, and on another, I was a wreck.
Since it’s nearly Valentine’s day, I recalled that I had the worst Valentine’s day last year. Worst? yes, worst. It was also full of humiliation, and depressing words that stabbed my heart, almost to death. But this year, I’m hoping for something better, well not really, I don’t like expecting, if it’s going to be a normal day, then so be it, maybe Valentine’s day isn’t really the most romantic day for me.
And hopefully, this coming valentine’s day, I wouldn’t have to put up with harsh words that would also scar me for life. I’ve been scarred already, and I think I deserve something better.
Then again, I’m not expecting anything, I may have a boyfriend now, but from my experiences, they were never really there on valentine’s day. Either we broke up the month before, or just plain busy.
